four month update, really late
I have this problem where stuff that happens as a result of my 'staging a miraculous recovery' sounds too weird to post, so I put off posting it. It's time to erase it or throw it out there, so here is what I wrote at the end of April, in all its weirdness:
Instead of learning anything today, I'm going to report on how things are going four months after I gained control of my fight-or-flight reflex.
This is the first year you haven't heard about pollen season, and we're right in the middle of it. I still sometimes wake up with heart palpitations around 4:30 am, but I can usually make them go away. Not without a struggle, but they go away. The first few days something new starts blooming I can't always get myself settled down, but after that the 'switch' just requires a little extra vigilance, like when I first started this whole thing.
This improvement is balanced by the fact that I have been having an increasingly hard time tolerating other EIs. Anyone who is detoxing anything makes me sick fast, and if I don't leave fast enough, I even feel it the next day. At first I thought it was just EIs who'd gotten into mold, in which case I could blame it on my immune system, which, freed from reacting to any old thing, started really going to town on anything mold-related. Now it looks like it's not that specific, because now I react to mail from EIs, some of whom I am pretty sure don't have any mold problems at all. I don't seem to have trouble with other mail, like bills, beyond the annoyance factor of having to pay them.
I have decided to lay the blame on a sebaceous cyst that's going away. (I didn't know they did that.) My doctor said cysts like that are places your body parks stuff it can't detoxify right away, and it looks like my body, in the spirit of working through the backlog, has decided to start in on the cyst. I imagine there are all kinds of detox products in there since it grew while I was really ill, so now I'm detoxing my detox products. Thus, my system is not prepared to deal with anyone else's detox products.
So that's my theory, and if it sounds made up, that's because it is.
Instead of learning anything today, I'm going to report on how things are going four months after I gained control of my fight-or-flight reflex.
This is the first year you haven't heard about pollen season, and we're right in the middle of it. I still sometimes wake up with heart palpitations around 4:30 am, but I can usually make them go away. Not without a struggle, but they go away. The first few days something new starts blooming I can't always get myself settled down, but after that the 'switch' just requires a little extra vigilance, like when I first started this whole thing.
This improvement is balanced by the fact that I have been having an increasingly hard time tolerating other EIs. Anyone who is detoxing anything makes me sick fast, and if I don't leave fast enough, I even feel it the next day. At first I thought it was just EIs who'd gotten into mold, in which case I could blame it on my immune system, which, freed from reacting to any old thing, started really going to town on anything mold-related. Now it looks like it's not that specific, because now I react to mail from EIs, some of whom I am pretty sure don't have any mold problems at all. I don't seem to have trouble with other mail, like bills, beyond the annoyance factor of having to pay them.
I have decided to lay the blame on a sebaceous cyst that's going away. (I didn't know they did that.) My doctor said cysts like that are places your body parks stuff it can't detoxify right away, and it looks like my body, in the spirit of working through the backlog, has decided to start in on the cyst. I imagine there are all kinds of detox products in there since it grew while I was really ill, so now I'm detoxing my detox products. Thus, my system is not prepared to deal with anyone else's detox products.
So that's my theory, and if it sounds made up, that's because it is.
posted by missmolly at 7:01 PM
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